Owl City "In Christ Alone"

thanks to ian wei. sharing good songs is what friends do :)

New Heights - Peaches

pretty awesome song from the jubilee project!

I would like a t-shirt with that print on it

web designers are awesome

of course i wish i could be like them and speak the html language.

but that is one language that i would not understand even if i tried to learn it. Then again it is probably not impossible.

And today is cleaning room day, as i'm sure the next whole month would be as well.

I hope my nose doesn't get already flatter

ladder rungs

here i am sitting up, and staring at the first rung, right infront of me.

I don't hurt anymore from the fall.

it's been a while 

In fact, I don't remember even seeing this ladder here.

I've been flat on my back all this time

I look up to see where it goes

to see how high it reaches up to

I can't see the end

I can't climb this thing!

And then God's word, 'Not by might or by power, but by My Spirit', slides down

But I'm still sitting here, staring at the first rung.

My hands are reluctant to grab hold

My feet refuse to push me up to a stand

I'm not ready to climb. I don't have the stamina or the will power. What's wrong with the floor. What's wrong with where I am at now. 

Oh. Right.

I'm blocking the way up. 

Go first! I urge the others behind me. Don't let me stop you! 

Some take the first rung, and they start to climb

I feel my hands reach out to pull them down

Just like a madras crab.

I slap myself. 

What have I become. 

I say a prayer, just because I feel like I should. 

Nothing happens, as usual. 'Things don't happen immediately"

As always I tell myself. 

I shut a door on the people behind me

occasionally opening it, to take a peep and ease my guilty conscience

of holding them up in the queue

And I close it back again and go back to lying down.

But now, here I am, staring at the first rung. 

Someone help? Please?

Anyone. 

The Velveteen Rabbit

by Margery Williams

"What is real?" asked the rabbit one day. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you, and a stick out handle?"

"Real isn't how you were made," said the skin Horse, "it's a thing that happen to you. When a child loves you for a long time, not just to play with, but really loves you, then you become Real. It doesn't happen all at once," said the skin horse. "You become. It takes a long time... Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby.

But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real, you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand"

Without You

from Rent

Without You, the ground thaws

The rain falls, the grass grows

Without You, the seeds root. 

The flowers bloom, the children play

The stars gleam, the poets dream

The eagles fly, without You

The earth turns, the sun burns

But I die without You

Without You, the breeze warms

The girl smiles, the cloud moves

Without you, the tides change

The boys run, the oceans crash

The crowds roar, the days soar

The babies cry

Without You

The moon glows, the river flows

But I die without You

The world revives, colours renew

But I know blue, only blue

Lonely blue, within me blue

Without You

Without You, the hand gropes

The ear hears, the pulse beats

Without You, the eyes gaze

The legs walk, the lungs breathe

The mind churns, the heart yearns

The tears dry, without You

Life goes on, but I'm gone

Cause I die, without You

Without you

Without you

So I hear that people still read this. :) Why thank you very much. My heart is warmed. 

That's where I want to be, the point where I die without you God 

I want my heart to yearn, I know even without You, life goes on, but I seem to be losing more and more of myself. And I don't want that. I don't want to be without You. 

The legs walk, the lungs breathe, but I die. 

Without You.

i don't think anyone reads this

well.. I can't exactly blame them because I never update! 

Anyway, this was something I had been thinking about recently.

You know how I'm doing Hebrew, and every time I tell someone that I'm learning Hebrew, their first reaction is always, (big eyes, open mouth) "Really?!" Followed by 2 facial expressions. One of which is amazement and awe, the other one I won't mention. 

haha :)

But more often than not, they would always ask me to say something in Hebrew. And being pretty much tired and slightly embarrassed of saying something of which they have absolutely no understanding of, I say "shalom". Which is something that pretty much is known to everyone in the Christian church. It means "peace", basically, or "Hello", and "Goodbye" depending on the context that you're using it in. 

The next thing that they'll ask me to say or to teach them, is how to introduce oneself to people. 

In Hebrew, this is pretty easy. You just say, directly translated from English, "I Christine".

Just because there isn't an "am" in Hebrew language. 

In Hebrew, "I Christine" will sound like this "ah-ni, Kristin".

אני כריסטין

So if you're pronouncing that, you're reading it from left to right. 

Then, this is the interesting bit.

The next thing that they ask is, "How do you say 'I love you'?"

Almost always, in whatever language when you are asking someone to teach you more, you'd ask that question, "How do you say 'I love you' ?"

Maybe it's just me, and it's just me, or just like me to want to, or would like to think that love really makes the world go round. But the next time you find someone learning a different language than that of which you know, think about it!

Or I could have most possibly jinxed the love revolution. 

But then again, it's a good thing that I think hardly anyone reads this blog anymore.. (:

And if you do...

אני אוהבת אתם

(ah-ni  o-hair-vet  ah-tem)

Guess what I just said?

Yeap! I love you (you in the plural form) 

(Just to make things clear)

:)