the more i try the harder i fall

so i let go and let God do the work.

because the more i try, the harder i fail.

i rather not try, if i try i stop God. But if i don't i let him do a work in me. STOP TRYING

blood oranges

i now have no more reasons to make blood orange gelato.

They are sitting in my fridge. probably growing mould.

or else, they've been thrown out.

my heart is heavy

My heart is heavy oh Lord,

My heart is heavy

it feels like it's crying

and doesn't know how to stop.

we wait for time to pass

hoping it will heal like it said it would

but time and time again

things get harder days get longer.

my heart is heavy oh Lord,

my heart is heavy

let me drink again from your rivers of living water

let me bathe in your presence

i want to soak, to saturate to immerse myself

into the pool that is your presence

into the well of your vast and living water

clear and blue, crystal and pure.

reaching to the bottom looking at the bubbles leaving me

Lord, quench this thirst quench

sing to me as i slowly fall asleep.